The Green Day Fangirls' Confessions Thread

[RedundantIdiot]

Finally we get to see the Rev Rad tattoo, although hopefully we'll get better glimpses of it this summer!! And I love that selfie on the Longshot Instagram 

[Guest]

I keep seeing new photos of him and for a second or two think it's from 2010

[pouty bitch]

Oh my god, I've just found a new belly pic that I'd never seen before. And it's from the chubby era!

I've fallen in love with him all over again.

[Slave To The Network]

Hey, here's something super relevant to the title of this thread. It's been basically like two years since I've been on here. I didn't listen to Green Day at all or have any association with them besides seeing them on the RevRad tour when they came to Washington. I haven't even listened to that album yet... 

I just recently started listing to Green Day again and came back here because I was remembering how much I love them... especially Billie. Falling back in love with his voice, his face, all of his habits and quirks. But now I'm scared that he'll drag me back in. I'm starting to feel the intensity of my feelings rise again and it's painful to a certain degree.  I've got to live my life, work on my career path, and find a real boy. Billie is real of course, but obviously not in reach or possible (and 19 years older than me and that also feels weird), which is part of why it hurts - the longing. It's like he's some kind of monster that if you look at it, you're just trapped. I take one look or hear his voice and I'm just like "Oh no..."

I mean, I'm having trouble even getting to sleep right now because of this and I have to get up early for work tomorrow morning.

Anyway, there's a fangirl confession for you guys. Don't know if I said too much or if it makes any sense at all, but if anyone has anything to say about this, feel free. I just had to get it out somewhere with other crazy GD fans.

[The Bellie]

35 minutes ago, Green Day In Seattle said:

Hey, here's something super relevant to the title of this thread. It's been basically like two years since I've been on here. I didn't listen to Green Day at all or have any association with them besides seeing them on the RevRad tour when they came to Washington. I haven't even listened to that album yet... 

I just recently started listing to Green Day again and came back here because I was remembering how much I love them... especially Billie. Falling back in love with his voice, his face, all of his habits and quirks. But now I'm scared that he'll drag me back in. I'm starting to feel the intensity of my feelings rise again and it's painful to a certain degree.  I've got to live my life, work on my career path, and find a real boy. Billie is real of course, but obviously not in reach or possible (and 19 years older than me and that also feels weird), which is part of why it hurts - the longing. It's like he's some kind of monster that if you look at it, you're just trapped. I take one look or hear his voice and I'm just like "Oh no..."

I mean, I'm having trouble even getting to sleep right now because of this and I have to get up early for work tomorrow morning.

Anyway, there's a fangirl confession for you guys. Don't know if I said too much or if it makes any sense at all, but if anyone has anything to say about this, feel free. I just had to get it out somewhere with other crazy GD fans.

You're welcome! And yes, we are other crazy GD fans! 

Billie is 24 years older than me and I'm also in love with someone (in my daily life) who's 35 years older than me (and is not with me). Love is for losers!

I'm totally with you on the trap thing with BIllie. I looked at him once, listened to his voice once and it was over.  But on the contrary to you, I don't think I've ever felt like I was scared about that. I'm mean, it does scare the shit out of me sometimes because I'm totally crazy about him and everybody agrees I'm crazy, but I've always been crazy and it's a good thing that it's about him. Moreover, he has brought me so much in the past 2 years since I've discovered the band, even when I feel extremely awkward for being such a fangirl which I would never have imagined myself to be before, every day reminds me of how much Billie has brought to me. Till the end of my life, he will be most precious to me. I never thought I could run away from that. And I don't think that fandom turns me away from my daily life, in my case, on the contrary he helps me to be a better, stronger and more joyful person, with joy in my daily life and hope for the upcoming (after my teenage years which were chaotic). So maybe it's because Billie is my savior that I never thought of calming down the intensity of my feelings for me. The monster got me for good  and deep in my heart I know it's for the better.  

Edited May 7, 2018 by Kuromignonne
I wrote savor instead of savior, lol

[pouty bitch]

5 hours ago, Green Day In Seattle said:

Hey, here's something super relevant to the title of this thread. It's been basically like two years since I've been on here. I didn't listen to Green Day at all or have any association with them besides seeing them on the RevRad tour when they came to Washington. I haven't even listened to that album yet... 

I just recently started listing to Green Day again and came back here because I was remembering how much I love them... especially Billie. Falling back in love with his voice, his face, all of his habits and quirks. But now I'm scared that he'll drag me back in. I'm starting to feel the intensity of my feelings rise again and it's painful to a certain degree.  I've got to live my life, work on my career path, and find a real boy. Billie is real of course, but obviously not in reach or possible (and 19 years older than me and that also feels weird), which is part of why it hurts - the longing. It's like he's some kind of monster that if you look at it, you're just trapped. I take one look or hear his voice and I'm just like "Oh no..."

I mean, I'm having trouble even getting to sleep right now because of this and I have to get up early for work tomorrow morning.

Anyway, there's a fangirl confession for you guys. Don't know if I said too much or if it makes any sense at all, but if anyone has anything to say about this, feel free. I just had to get it out somewhere with other crazy GD fans.

This is honestly the most relatable thing I've ever read in my life (aside from the first part because I've never had the strength to pull myself away from him). He is seriously an addiction. I find myself cancelling plans to stay home and watch videos of him instead, I spend an unhealthy amount of time just sitting there thinking about him when I really should be doing other important things, and sometimes I even skip vital things such as eating or going to sleep so that I have more time to listen to/watch/think about him. I didn't sleep a wink last night 'cause I was too busy on instagram, looking at pics and watching videos of him. I love him so much that it hurts - it genuinely feels like I've been stabbed in the heart sometimes. And to make everything worse, he's 29 years older than me, so I always feel like I'm getting judged for that too.

Some people would say that all of this is unhealthy. They would say I should stop feeding my addiction because it's taking over my life, and I guess it is. But I know for a fact that I wouldn't have a life without him. If I'd cut him out of my life I wouldn't be here right now. He's the only thing that's ever truly made me happy, he's all that I ever want. Which is why I see it differently to how you do - I don't think "oh no", I welcome it. Because as painful and toxic as it sometimes can be, it's better than the alternative. Plus, he still brings me insane amounts of joy and happiness daily, and just makes me a better person all-round. He gives me a better life. And I even feel like I'm pretty good at loving him from a distance, so I guess I am starting to cope with it pretty well. So yeah, I definitely do view it as a positive thing. I love him and I'm proud of it.

Seriously, I've been trying so long to put my feelings for him into words, and I've never been able to, but part of your post summed it up perfectly. Thank you so much for that.

Edited May 7, 2018 by AlissaGoesRAWR
I removed the extra quote box for you.

[jengd]

Billie seems to inspire obsession big time!  I have been a fan for a long time and am older than Billie so it feels a little weird to me, I frequently am looking at stuff and commenting on here, swooning over Billie and thinking "god, I'm old enough to know better than this, it's nuts" but he and the band play an important part of my life.  I think I do have it under control now, I understand that there are times when I just have to wait until I have the time catch up -today being a perfect example after a very busy weekend with family stuff - so I am enjoying seeing all that's happened, and it does usually keep ok for when you get to it.  You could have worse obsessions I guess. 

e.g., feel the need to say this:

 

On ‎05‎/‎05‎/‎2018 at 9:09 PM, pacejunkie punk said:

It looks like such a hassle for him to have to push that jacket out of the way all the time when he plays he really shouldn’t bother wearing it. 

The only way I can understand him wearing so many clothes in small, sweaty clubs in places which are already warm must be that he knows he is going to get so sweaty that it doesn't really matter what he wears but come on Billie Joe, lets at least lose the jackets and roll up the shirt sleeves  

Edited May 7, 2018 by jengd
Addition

[pacejunkie punk]

5 hours ago, Green Day In Seattle said:

Hey, here's something super relevant to the title of this thread. It's been basically like two years since I've been on here. I didn't listen to Green Day at all or have any association with them besides seeing them on the RevRad tour when they came to Washington. I haven't even listened to that album yet... 

I just recently started listing to Green Day again and came back here because I was remembering how much I love them... especially Billie. Falling back in love with his voice, his face, all of his habits and quirks. But now I'm scared that he'll drag me back in. I'm starting to feel the intensity of my feelings rise again and it's painful to a certain degree.  I've got to live my life, work on my career path, and find a real boy. Billie is real of course, but obviously not in reach or possible (and 19 years older than me and that also feels weird), which is part of why it hurts - the longing. It's like he's some kind of monster that if you look at it, you're just trapped. I take one look or hear his voice and I'm just like "Oh no..."

I mean, I'm having trouble even getting to sleep right now because of this and I have to get up early for work tomorrow morning.

Anyway, there's a fangirl confession for you guys. Don't know if I said too much or if it makes any sense at all, but if anyone has anything to say about this, feel free. I just had to get it out somewhere with other crazy GD fans.

Welcome back and I appreciate the confession. I don’t know what this power is that he has over us but he sure does have it (it’s been scientifically proven! 10,000,000 fangirls can’t be wrong 😁)

I first saw them live in March of last year and even though I was a mile away and I hardly knew half the setlist at that point, I left transformed and haven’t been the same since. And I’m older than Billie and have been to dozens and dozens of concerts in my life and have had fandoms and crushes before but nothing like this. I literally walked out of the arena and said to my poor suffering husband, “Honey I’m leaving you for Billie Joe Armstrong.” (His reponse: “I think he’s taken.”) Not a day has gone by since that first show that I haven’t either thought of him, listened to Green Day or a side project, looked at photos, videos, or talked to other fans about him. I don’t regret a minute of it but he is an addiction no doubt. 💕💕💕 And this was even before I knew what a special person he was and his personal struggles and how affectionate he is with his family and friends and the way he wants to connect to fans and his raw honesty and openness and the way he gives back to his community and to charities and I could go on.  Before I knew any of that something drew me in that I can’t explain.

[IcyMoffatt]

On 4/5/2018 at 6:22 PM, Nightlife said:

The nickname Pocket Rocket still amuses me. 

Pocket Rocket is the nickname of Henri Richard, the younger brother of Maurice Richard who was nicknamed The Rocket. Both of them played professionnal hockey for the Montreal's Canadians hockey club. (Sorry for the out of topic informations)

On 5/5/2018 at 12:07 PM, Montclare said:

I'll take Billie and dogs instead. 

The dog looks like he wants to say «Billie, you're squeezing me!»

 

6 hours ago, Green Day In Seattle said:

Hey, here's something super relevant to the title of this thread. It's been basically like two years since I've been on here. I didn't listen to Green Day at all or have any association with them besides seeing them on the RevRad tour when they came to Washington. I haven't even listened to that album yet... 

I just recently started listing to Green Day again and came back here because I was remembering how much I love them... especially Billie. Falling back in love with his voice, his face, all of his habits and quirks. But now I'm scared that he'll drag me back in. I'm starting to feel the intensity of my feelings rise again and it's painful to a certain degree.  I've got to live my life, work on my career path, and find a real boy. Billie is real of course, but obviously not in reach or possible (and 19 years older than me and that also feels weird), which is part of why it hurts - the longing. It's like he's some kind of monster that if you look at it, you're just trapped. I take one look or hear his voice and I'm just like "Oh no..."

I mean, I'm having trouble even getting to sleep right now because of this and I have to get up early for work tomorrow morning.

Anyway, there's a fangirl confession for you guys. Don't know if I said too much or if it makes any sense at all, but if anyone has anything to say about this, feel free. I just had to get it out somewhere with other crazy GD fans.

I understand you. Billie is 15 years older then me. I can't stop thinking about him. He is an obsession. When I was a kid, I didn't know what was GD neither did I understand english at all. But I liked the songs on the radio. As a teenager, GD became a band that I liked, but Billie was scaring me. He was everything I wanted to hate in somebody. I didn't understand why I was loving him and GD. And also I was more into another band at the time (well, I still do in a way, but it's hard to do when the band in question broke up in 2001). Thinking about it, I guess at one point I tried to push away GD out of my mind. Anyway, as a young  adult, I started to get interested in Billie's history. The more I discovered him, the more I understand him and the more I love him. Never judge a book by its cover. Seeing GD live for the first time in 2010 blew me away.  It's kind of a turning point. That's when I understood I love Billie because I relate to him a lot. 

Billie is an inspiration to me, a role model. He brings me so much joy in my life. I don't want to make a long post about it. Instead, I will just say this: he makes me feel confortable with who I am. I'm not failure and I will never let somebody again intimidates me. I will create my own path as a artist (costumes designer, cosplayer) even if I've ADD, live with depressive episodes regulary and act awkward socially. Billie doesn't know me. I never met him in fact. But I would love to meet him just to tell him all about how he makes me feel and how thankfull I am. I still feel weird about the letter I wrote him and the gift I made last summer. I hoped to somehow give them to Billie in Toronto when I went to see GD in concert. Luckily, my friend and I came accross Mike and his bodyguard in front of the hotel GD were staying after the concert while we were going back to our hotel. The bodyguard took what I wanted to give, but I'm pretty sure it ended in the garbage. Nevertheless, I love to think that it might have been Billie visiting my public Facebook account the day after in the beginning of the afternoon (I did write the link in my letter and it was the only visitor after 2 weeks of nothing, followed by 2 other weeks of nothing).

[Billie Joes Eyelids]

I love all of your heartfelt posts about your Billie addictions and I can relate to parts of all of them ❤️❤️❤️

Now I have a light-hearted question for all of you. What was it like the first time you came across the masturbation/moaning videos? I came across them on YouTube when I first became interested in 2016 and I remember sweating, heart palpitations, and lightheadedness. I remember that was the time that I said to myself “That is one fucking sexy man” and my interest turned to obsession. 

[Thatsername]

@Green Day In Seattle I feel you too. He's working his magic on all of us. I thought I'd be too old to fangirl when I turned 30, but on the contrary. It keeps getting worse I've loved Green Day and especially Billie for half of my life now, but I've never felt closer to him than I do now (I think all the social media stuff is adding to it, plus he's getting more and more beautiful and amazing and stunning with every single day; he's feeding our addiction). Yeah it's not so nice to feel like a freak sometimes, but hey, that's what we are here for, we're all freaks.

1 hour ago, pacejunkie punk said:

I literally walked out of the arena and said to my poor suffering husband, “Honey I’m leaving you for Billie Joe Armstrong.” (His reponse: “I think he’s taken.”)

OMG I love his reaction! Being the husband of a fangirl can be hard, I guess. I went to a Green Day show in Austria on our wedding anniversary last year (without him). Call me a bad wife, but you gotta set your priorities, right? . Here's a toast to all our brave husbands or boyfriends!

[pacejunkie punk]

18 minutes ago, Thatsername said:

OMG I love his reaction! Being the husband of a fangirl can be hard, I guess. I went to a Green Day show in Austria on our wedding anniversary last year (without him). Call me a bad wife, but you gotta set your priorities, right? . Here's a toast to all our brave husbands or boyfriends!

*toast* I support his golf addiction and in turn he supports me in this. He’s a tease too. When I showed him the video of Billie falling into the crowd at the Pheonix show and said that’s where I want to be when I go see them he said, maybe you can get a sweaty lock of his hair and tape it to the wall (in the room where I have the Green Day confetti taped to the wall). He really shouldn’t challenge me like that 😂 

[RedundantIdiot]

I'm addicted to Billie and GD, too! When I get home from work I look for GD news/check their Instagrams/ check GDC. As Rev Rad was my 1st GD era, I didn't expect to be this addicted to GD during their break, but I feel the need to check for GD news in case something happens and I miss it. And GD always make me smile regardless of whether I've had a good or bad day. 

[The Ghost Dancer]

OMG  I think I just found one of the most perfect recent bellie glimpses (around 30:10)

[Squashie]

50 minutes ago, heathenchemist said:

OMG  I think I just found one of the most perfect recent bellie glimpses (around 30:10)

 

(that video title is misleading considering Devil's Kind isn't from the Albany show and it looks like they ripped off Admiral Needa's videos, but maybe not.)

[Squashie]

I just... hot damn.

the hair. The sunnies. The stance.

 

[amberwhite]

Now THAT'S what a rock star is supposed to look like! 

[UNICORN VOMIT]

1 hour ago, amberwhite said:

Now THAT'S what a rock star is supposed to look like! 

ffsflkjadjs;jjdumyumyum

[Slave To The Network]

I really appreciate what everyone has said in response to my post up there. It means a lot to be in good company on here. I guess we all have our ways of dealing with the obsession. I've been through this before and I can get through it again. It helps knowing that all of you are with me.

But seriously, this Billie is a monster! Not even one day after I decided to come back, my dreams are invaded again! Back when there was still a signature feature on these forums, my famous title was "Queen of the Green Day Dreams Thread". I guess that may become a reality again. Fuck you, Billie (JK I love you ). But damn! Can't even catch a break in my dreams. When the love for him comes back, it comes with a vengeance. 

[jengd]

16 hours ago, neverdone2000 said:

 

Now I have a light-hearted question for all of you. What was it like the first time you came across the masturbation/moaning videos? 

Sorry, I’ve said some of this before on here.  I had liked the band for a long time but was very busy, work, family, house etc and kind of caught up with them again when AI was released.  I had thought  they were kind of cute up until that point but the first time I saw the AI video it stopped me in my tracks and I thought woah, these boys have grown up, I couldn’t believe how amazing Billie in particular looked and was completely smitten.  I wasn’t able to get to a show at that stage but got the BIAB video which is where I first saw him do the  masturbation thing and oh god, I can just remember sitting completely transfixed.  I had one of those “oh no, he’s not really going to.....oh wow, yes he is” moments.  Wore a hole in the dvd rewatching it 😂 (just to check you understand) still very sorry I never got to see him do it in front of me 😭 he is one sexy mofo!

16 hours ago, Thatsername said:

 

OMG I love his reaction! Being the husband of a fangirl can be hard, I guess. I went to a Green Day show in Austria on our wedding anniversary last year (without him). Call me a bad wife, but you gotta set your priorities, right? . Here's a toast to all our brave husbands or boyfriends!

Just think of all the exercise they get though with all the eye rolling. 😂  My husband just thinks I’m mad anyway, this is just another manifestation of it 😂😂😂

4 hours ago, squashie09 said:

I just... hot damn.

the hair. The sunnies. The stance.

 

 

Perfection, @amberwhite out it perfectly 

[The Bellie]

19 hours ago, pacejunkie punk said:

[...] Not a day has gone by since that first show that I haven’t either thought of him, listened to Green Day or a side project, looked at photos, videos, or talked to other fans about him. I don’t regret a minute of it but he is an addiction no doubt. 💕💕💕 And this was even before I knew what a special person he was and his personal struggles and how affectionate he is with his family and friends and the way he wants to connect to fans and his raw honesty and openness and the way he gives back to his community and to charities and I could go on.  Before I knew any of that something drew me in that I can’t explain.

^^  For me not a day has gone without looking at Billie related stuff since the first time I saw a thing of him on the internet. I think it was the 21 Guns video. And my obsession suddenly started at that moment, before I knew anything about him. And I too had other few crushes before among celebrities but not like this. I've never been very interested in knowing their past, struggles, personality. But for Billie, I immediately started to read biography, interviews, etc... I wanted to get into him as much as possible, like a visceral need. 

19 hours ago, IcyMoffatt said:

He is an obsession. When I was a kid, I didn't know what was GD neither did I understand english at all. But I liked the songs on the radio. As a teenager, GD became a band that I liked, but Billie was scaring me. He was everything I wanted to hate in somebody. I didn't understand why I was loving him and GD.

[...] I understood I love Billie because I relate to him a lot. 

[...] Billie doesn't know me. I never met him in fact. But I would love to meet him just to tell him all about how he makes me feel and how thankfull I am. I still feel weird about the letter I wrote him and the gift I made last summer. I hoped to somehow give them to Billie in Toronto when I went to see GD in concert. Luckily, my friend and I came accross Mike and his bodyguard in front of the hotel GD were staying after the concert while we were going back to our hotel. The bodyguard took what I wanted to give, but I'm pretty sure it ended in the garbage. Nevertheless, I love to think that it might have been Billie visiting my public Facebook account the day after in the beginning of the afternoon (I did write the link in my letter and it was the only visitor after 2 weeks of nothing, followed by 2 other weeks of nothing).

^^  Knowing the teenager I used to be, I would perhaps have been scared of Billie too if I had discovered his existence before. (Well, he still has scared me sometimes, like at the first gig I went to last year, when he was screaming "jump, jump, jump" in a desperate way, while I was already half dead of suffocation and absolutely didn't want the people surrounding me to jump  but this is an example of things I overcame : the next 2 gigs, I was still half dead during the show but the fear had left, while after the first time, I thought I was never going to be able to survive another one. But inspired by Billie, I believed in myself and it went fine the 2 following times. )

Thinking of your present for Billie, it does make sense that he was the one to visit your Facebook page (the day when you'll get to meet Billie in person you will be able to ask him ), and moreover why would the bodyguard have thrown your present away? It's not so much of a big deal to give it to Billie instead (after checking there's nothing dangerous).

18 hours ago, neverdone2000 said:

I love all of your heartfelt posts about your Billie addictions and I can relate to parts of all of them ❤️❤️❤️

Now I have a light-hearted question for all of you. What was it like the first time you came across the masturbation/moaning videos? I came across them on YouTube when I first became interested in 2016 and I remember sweating, heart palpitations, and lightheadedness. I remember that was the time that I said to myself “That is one fucking sexy man” and my interest turned to obsession. 

When I was just starting to discover Green Day and checking out as much stuff as I could, inevitably I fell on a moaning/masturbation video at some point. I was already obsessed by Billie, and a bit shocked  to see what he as doing, but yeah it was so sexy that I started looking of other videos of that type not long after... (good thing we're in the confessions thread !)

18 hours ago, pacejunkie punk said:

I showed him the video of Billie falling into the crowd at the Pheonix show 

Don't think I've seen it, can you post a link to this video?

[Hermione]

21 hours ago, neverdone2000 said:

 

Now I have a light-hearted question for all of you. What was it like the first time you came across the masturbation/moaning videos? I came across them on YouTube when I first became interested in 2016 and I remember sweating, heart palpitations, and lightheadedness. I remember that was the time that I said to myself “That is one fucking sexy man” and my interest turned to obsession. 

I'd read about him doing it first because when I got into GD I didn't have internet access and hadn't seen any live footage other than tv performances but had read books/magazines about them. So I already had an idea that he was a great frontman and looked forward to seeing all the stuff like that he does haha. When I got BIAB I wasn't disappointed . Ho as hell of course but I also just found it so genius how he can do such a taboo thing to whip up/command the crowd perfectly, all with some tongue in cheek humour. 

Also remember being struck by how sexual/risque he is on stage in general, you wouldn't really know that from GD's public image. Still kind of weird that he isn't known for that the way many other performers who act sexy are, he's known for being good looking and a good frontman but the way he gets down on stage has never really been acknowledged outside the fandom. Certainly helped increase my obsession  

[pacejunkie punk]

It was after I saw BIAB that I discovered he first started doing the masturbation thing on the Pop Disaster tour (as a way to one up Blink I believe, there was so much competition on that tour to upstage one another). Then it really peaked (pun intended) during AI 🤤 😱

@Kuromignonne 

 

[jengd]

1 hour ago, Hermione said:

 

Also remember being struck by how sexual/risque he is on stage in general, you wouldn't really know that from GD's public image. Still kind of weird that he isn't known for that the way many other performers who act sexy are, he's known for being good looking and a good frontman but the way he gets down on stage has never really been acknowledged outside the fandom. Certainly helped increase my obsession  

Good point, everyone acknowledges they are a great live band and he's one of the best frontmen of every but you see little mention of how sexy/naughty/risqué he is.  Makes me wonder if many music journalist are hetero males?!  I often think way too many photographers are, why can't they understand we need to see the gorgeousness, forget the fancy effects 

[Hermione]

You're probably right