I can get your feelings too even though now I started a new page but I know that it's more than a fan page and even it becomes more than just the things that about the band at some point. I said that before but for me the most important thing was the whole connection I had there but I believe that I started to get something similar again quickly with my new page and my old one was very new considering to many of you but ofc I worked hard on it too cause like I had more than one thousand posts which was a lot for a 6 months page imo. Also, I didn't really want to say that but the most special thing that I will probably never get back was the messages I sent Billie and were seen by him at some point, he was also still following my page till he deactivated his account but that doesn't really matter for me,the thing was more important was that whole period of time when I sent those messages and then he saw them and other things were really special for me, again it was not just about him but my mental state at that time and all the other things makes it that special actually. It's some of those things that I lost and maybe cannot ever get again even though I believe that I will have some other special times on my new page as well. So, if I didn't have those stuff, maybe I could move on more easily but trust me still I cannot help but think about it. So, yeah I still wanna try everything to get it back even though I don't even know if mine was deleted completely too at this point or not but when I have more time in a few weeks, I will try my best to figure out and try some ways and work on that eventually, I would also want to help others as well, I believe we can do this togeher.