@G-L-O-R-I-A I first saw him 9 years ago, and I've loved him ever since. After the initial infatuation (which lasted a good few years), my love for him stabilized, but it has its spikes every now and then, this being one of them. Getting back into listening to Green Day and getting to see them live and go to a Longshot show and be so close to Billie has just intensified the feelings that are always there, but were just kind of dormant for a while. I definitely agree that there is no one else on earth who I want to get to know more than him!
I'd just love to have hours and hours to talk to him and spend with him and really get to know the kind of person he is. Having him as a friend would be amazing! We already know he's incredibly talented, good hearted, dedicated, and intelligent, but there's always more to learn about him. I'd give so much for that, but it's not possible. Dreams are the only place where I can come anywhere close to doing that, but they're not real. I really love dreams like that, but at the same time they just make me sad because they can't happen in real life. All of this kind of brings everything down and makes it hard to find the motivation to focus on and do the things that I actually have to get done in life.
Sorry to be such a downer! I just needed to get that out. It helps me process and it helps to be in the company of others with similar experiences.