I think 10 could do it although it's hard to be reasonable with the videos that are your favorites... This morning I may have watched 20 times Thursday's performance of Whole Wide World, I started crying of an overwhelming happiness from the 2nd view, and by the end of all the views the crazy inside me had completely taken over . I loved so much every detail of what Billie has done during this performance I just wanted to never stop watching it.
I love the way Billie sings, plays, moves, smiles, it's my favorite vision in the world.
From time to time I have these moments where I can't help but asking myself: why do I love him so much ? How is it that I need him so much? while I barely even know him. I'm thinking of him all the time. Almost speaking of him all the time. Gaining strength to live thanks to him. Sometimes I feel weird when I'm showing my passion of him, no one seems to understand, while it's just the deepest feelings I've ever had, sometimes unbearably deep. But most people seem to think of it as a blind love thing, and not to give a shit about what I can say about Billie... At least, that's what I thought, until something awesome happened 2 weeks ago:
My boss, who mocks Billie all the time just to piss me off (which generates endless laughs at work) is a very big smoker, and I told him 2 weeks ago, in front of his girlfriend and his housemate who both smoke and don't seem to encourage him a lot to put it off, that addictions can be overcome, it's not a pleasure he gives himself but a damage, to the point it's a threat to his life. I told him I had managed to overcome a long-time addiction that almost got me killed (it was the first time I was mentioning it to him) and for me, I totally got out of it thanks to Billie, and I just wished he believed it is possible for him as well and he finds his own way to get out of his addiction. And nothing is vain when you really want to live without that. And my boss hasn't smoked since, he has replaced it with electronic cigarette, which he had never managed to do, not one day in 2 years I've known him. This is totally Billie magic: the words I used, I gave them the same flame I received from Billie. And even though my boss pretends he doesn't care about Billie (fuck him if it's true ) that flame touched him as well. I was so happy when seeing it and hopes he goes on this way.