Don't expect what you want to expect and expect what you don't want to expect. Not a brainy sentence, but it works. I mean, I always got what I didn't want to get and the reverse too. So if you want to see the guys, don't look around wherever you are !!! superstitions work sometimes
Are you affraid of meeting them ? Because you're talking about forcing yourself... If so, I understand that feel. I could say a fucking word in front of them, haha. And not even go up to them !!